Cause It's All In My Head, I Think About It Over And Over Again

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-11-23T16:41:00

2004-11-23T23:39:04Z

Lifes different right now...i hate it. end of story.

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2004-11-12T01:27:29Z

Post a memory of me and you.
It can be anything you want.
Then post this to your journal.
See what people remember about you..

Took that from Ashlyn..thought it would be neat to see what people say..

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-11-10T22:48:00

2004-11-11T05:49:22Z

It was a rough night. I went to Josh's viewing today. It was very depressing. I stood there crying. I looked at the pictures they had from when he was born up to the most recent one of him, he had the most contagious smile that I never noticed until now. I Miss Him. I miss that smile that made you smile right when you saw his. I met him once. I miss how he made me laugh that whole night I hung around him. His whole personality was so incredible. So hilarious. He could make anyone laugh and i loved that about him. I remember thinking while leaving that party that night i met Josh, that Josh was one of those people that is so great, you always want to hang around because they make you happy. I never would have thought he would do this. Its hurt my heart. The whole time i stood there and cried i just kept thinking..why Josh? and i'm still thinking why him? He was so incredible..

Rest In Peace Josh..Your Missed So Incredibly Much.

Remember Josh

Hug A Friend

Smile at someone

Listen

Act a little crazy sometimes

Don't be afraid to ask for help

Say "i love you"

Laugh Often

Never Give Up!

Tie this blue string around your wrist. Everytime you look at it, remember Josh...and smile.

Everything There ^ describes him So perfectly..

I hope you get/got a blue string.

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-11-05T23:12:00

2004-11-06T06:30:37Z

how all of it happened so fast

how many times I think over and over, why him?

how many times I wish this was all just a dream.

how I didnt even know him very well and now he's gone.

how i miss him, i barly knew him, only met once.

how he'll be in my heart still without knowing him very well.

how when i met him i knew i would remember him and NEVER want to forget him, his whole personality was AMAZING the minute i met him.

how i cant stop thinking about him.

how helpless i feel not being able to do anything.

how much i wish i could've gotten to know him better.

how much more horrible i would feel if i knew him more then i did.

how i never thought this could've happened..

RIP Josh

Dear Lord,

I Thank You For Everything In This World.. I Know Everything Happens For A Reason. But I Wont Ever Know This Reason. I Truly Hope You've Forgiven Him So He's In A Better Place With You. This Is Horrible And I Will Never Blame You For His Decision. I Keep Thinking That Inside Of Him, He Must Of Been In Alot Of Pain, Hurting Horribly, To Do That, Even Though I Couldn't Tell Because He Was A Great Person By Just Meeting Him Once I Could Tell He Was An Amazing Person To Be Around, I Bet You Know That To. But Lord, If He Is With You, I Hope All Of His Pain Is Gone And He Can Be The Same Amazing Person He Was On The Outside That I Saw When I Met Him, Now Inside Of Him Too Without Any Of The Pain He Had. I Usually Dont Ask You For Things But I Really Need To Ask You To Take Care Of All The People In Pain For Their Loss, And I Know You Will. I Love You.

Amen

I Love ALL Of You <33

Melissa

Nothin exciting really went on today...

2004-11-04T04:06:43Z

I woke up today, took a shower, got ready, it was a comfortable day, i didnt feel like trying to look cute, anyways, i got ready then did some of Pereks homework, i dont like her very much, sometimes she can be pretty cool though. I made toast with my moms new toaster (scott and i bought it for one of her presents for her birthday (yesterday) ) it didnt burn my toast so i was pretty happy with it. Scott took the LAST apple that i wanted so he ate some of it then gave it to me, he was actually being nice to me this morning, hes such a fun brother :) my mom dropped him off then she dropped me off at school and i had a good morning, first period was boring but i wasnt paying any attension so it didnt matter, 2nd period we had that bus evacuation thing then 3rd Joe kept grabbing my love handles so i'd make weird sounds, it was pretty funny. lunch was good, 4th and 5th Geena and i were laughing about dumb things mostly..it was fun though, 6th has been gay ever since Mr. R moved Alana...7th was BADMINTON! thats always fun cept when you have Maggie as your partner, and she doesnt know how to serve, lol just playin, 8th was boring, Brice wrote me a note saying i'm "soo hot" it was the highlight of my day, it was funny, ya had to be there, after school i had yearbook with my girls, it was fun, Mrs. K is awesome. Afterwards its Kasies birthday so the Lambros' picked me up and we went out to dinner, Mrs and Mr. Lambros, Kasie, Maggie and I, afterwards, chilled at Maggies a little and then went home, took a shower, did some homework and then my Daddy picked me up to go to Frys to get a little gift for my Alana (her birthday tomorrow) so now i'm about to go watch tv in bed..

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-10-31T11:23:00

2004-10-31T18:38:30Z

So yesterday, October 30, i woke up, got ready for conference and i met the rest of my team @ desert vista park at 8:30 and conference "A" started at 9:00 for the top 10 girls and then the top 10 boys around 9:30 then the "B" girls went at around 10 (thats what i'm in) and then the boys "B" went after us. so i was there till around 11, i was really disappointed in myself, anyways then my mom, brother, dad and i walked back to my dads house (its really close to DV) and i decided i wanted to paint my room a different color at his house so we picked out a color and then my mom, my brother and i went home (my moms house) so my dad could paint my room and when i got home i ate a cupcake that i had been dying to eat but didnt cause of confrence. it was a good one too. then mostly layed around all day till about 4:30 i started getting ready for this party i was going to with Darrell's sister, Tiffany, and Darrell. We had to look like "CEO's and Buisness Hoe's" so i got all ready and then they picked me up around 7 and Darrell was my CEO and i was his Buisness Hoe for Bobbys party so we were more then half way to Bobbys house and TJ calls so we had to go all the way back to Tj's and get him, finally we got to Bobbys and it was FUN, Darrell didnt seem like he was having that much fun but TJ and i had a ton of fun, i met a lot of really cool people named, Bobby i met before but i got to talk with him more, Jake works at Domino's which is AWESOME, Josh was SO effin FUNNY he was constantly making me laugh, those are the only ones that i remember their names. i went from quite in the beginning of the party, to SO hyper, to really tired around 12 so around 12 i fell asleep on Darrell then he woke me up and, we left Bobbys around 1:00, i was falling asleep on Darrell on the way home too, Darrell walked me to my door one of those movie moments, it was cute, i laughed about it when i got in the house, cept i was laughing about everything, so anyways it was really dark cause my mom and brother were already asleep, and i couldnt find the light and i walked in my room and tripped over my pile of clothes on the floor and then i was on the floor laughing at myself, one of those moments that you had to be there, i took of my boostea off (idk if thats how you spell it) and finally could breathe and got into my pajamas and layed in bed and fell right asleep...yesterday i went from being disappointed in myself to the point where i didnt think of it anymore and had heck of fun the rest of the night. :) well tonights gonna be hell of fun also, i cant wait! :)

Happy Halloween :)

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OMGOSH!!!!

2004-10-26T01:28:57Z

MINI TOWN WAS SO FREAKING AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS THEE BEST EVER! UNDESCRIBLE! (i would tell ya'll about it but it was just so incredible i cant type it all, because i'm lazy.)

My Day : )

2004-10-22T02:48:18Z

Today, i woke up, got ready for practice then went to practice and ran my ass off..the usual but it was colder today..then got ready for school, then school..it was very windy, then first period we did something i didnt understand so Kim and i messed around the whole time in the computer lab, 2nd period was boring. 3rd wasnt very exciting either, Lucas thinks i do drugs though (joke between my table) then i went to lunch where Darrell kept giving me a hard time about what i said the other day even though i was JOKING, so him, JOHN PAUL, Lucas, all gave me a bad time, then 4th and 5th were boring but Mrs Perek did let us go outside since it was REALLY windy/raining for a minute, it was cool. then 6th was THEE BEST, "I have a Mr. Pinky" funniest thing ever, you had to be there, and Mr. R kept laughing at me cause i didnt know any of the bones he was talking about and i got confused about the foot bone and the ankle bone and then he made fun of me but thats okay, hes still my favorite, 7th period we stayed inside and i mostly talked to Katy, Maggie, Kim and Tor, before 8th i went to see Mrs. K for the camera (yearbook, YES I AM COOL AND IN YEARBOOK! ITS AWESOME) and then on the way back it was pooring on me and all windy and i was all by myself and i almost fell cause it was slippery, it was hilarious, and no one was there to laugh with me so i laughed by myself, then math we had a sub so it was boring. AFTER SCHOOL, Katy, Tor, Darrell, and JOHN PAUL all walked over to where the ALEX would pick up Katy, Torii and I, i took John Pauls jacket cause it was still raining, (i love the rain but its cold but i still love it) and then i told Darrell i wanted a bunch of those cookies he has at his house for the way up to Mini Town to eat and he said okay, so he jumped on JOHN PAUL's bike and rode to his house and grabbed a bunch for me JUST BEFORE the ALEX came, then i said by to him since i wont see him till Monday and then John Paul made me give his jacket back before i got on the ALEX so i was cold again, then i got off with Katy and went to her house till my dad picked me up and him and i went to my moms to get EVERYTHING i would need for Mini Town and i got to my dads house and started PACKING!!! then ate dinner, then took a shower, (i like to procrastinate like i am right now typing in here..hehe) well Katy, Alexa, and Maggie are spending the night tonight and they should be here any minute for us to go to the grocery store to get SNACKS! I AM SO EFFIN EXCITED TO GO TO MINI TOWN TOMORROW!! OMGOSH YOU HAVE NO IDEA, THIS IS GONNA KICK ASS!!!

Great Days :)

2004-10-20T04:54:29Z

Monday- On Monday, i woke up @ 6:30, and went to practice, after practice (8AM) i walked over to Darrells and woke him up, well sorta he layed there for awhile and then i wanted a nap but i never did fall asleep with him, anyways so then Tj, Lacey, Tony, Dylan all came over to Darrells and they did his chores and i ate lunch then Darrell, Tj, Dylan and i were running towards the ALEX stop and Lacey and Tony were walking so Darrells sister picked up, Darrell, Tj, Dylan and I and she took us to my house so i could get out of my runnig clothes and into some real clothes and Lacey and Tony called and told us to meet them at Best Buy so Darrell, Tj, Dylan and I were waiting for the ALEX and they decided to slide down this grassy hill and it looked like fun, and they were having fun cause we had nothing else to do, but it was hilarous cause TJ fell and the grass was stuck to the side of his, it was SO funny and then he washed off in the apartments fountain (right by the ALEX stop) gosh i guess you had to be there it was funny, anyways FINALLY the ALEX game and we got over to Best Buy then TJ and Dylan bought their CD's and we rode the ALEX back up to Cost Cutters (the boys all wanted hair cuts) so Darrell, Dylan and Lacey got hairs cuts REAL short, Laceys actually looks cute, but Darrell and Dylans is REALLY SHORT then we all went to Darrells but Lacey, Tony, and Dylan all went home and then Darrells sister took TJ home so then i waited at Darrells till my mom came, so i got home, took a shower, ate dinner, watched Everwood, then went to bed :) PERFECT FRICKIN DAY! OMGOSH IT WAS THEE BEST! UNDESCRIBLE! PERFECT...PERFECT..IT WAS JUST PERFECT!

Tuesday- woke up, went to practice, ran my ass off, went to school, Torok we had SSR, Cranson we didnt do anything (cept there was a buggy on the carpet and it was very exciting for me) got a new exploratory, went to lunch, went to Perek, then MR. R BEST FRICKIN CLASS AND ONLY BECAUSE I LOVE ALANA, HER AND I MAKE THAT CLASS AWESOME! I <3 HER! then anyways..got new PE teacher, and got made fun of in math cause i cant say hundred right and the WHOLE class laughed at me..but overall it was an easy day at school, then i talked to JOHN PAUL, Darrell and Kim after school for a little bit before Kim and I got on the ALEX then her and I got on the ALEX to the Y and we, did the treadmill for 20 minutes, the bike for 20 minutes, then did arm and ab weighs, then her dad took us to my house and her and i ate dinner, then i took a shower, and she got the mail? for my mom i guess? and then her and i watched One Tree Hill!!! << BEST SHOW!!!!! then she went home and i did my homework then watched the rest of the game and the YANKEES LOST!!!! i am MAD! the ONLY people i know who want the Yankees to win is Me and Jon, the rest of you SUCK! hehe..now i'm going to straigten my hair and go to bed..ANOTHER VERY GOOD DAY BUT YESTERDAY WAS BETTER! :)

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-10-13T22:49:00

2004-10-14T05:50:37Z

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My Wednesday..

2004-10-14T05:47:55Z

This morning i woke up, got ready, went to the doctors, i am healthy : ) then after i came home, i did some chores, called alexa and invited myself over, how nice of me, i know she doesnt care <3 then before going to Alexas, my dad took me to Taco Bell and we were going threw the drive through, and i saw JAMES AND ASHLYN! through the window! so i hoped out of the car ran around the other side of Taco Bell and said Hi! Ashlyn and I ALWAYS see eachother at random places...its GREAT! Anywho..i got to Alexas, and Alana ate all my cinnomon twists >O, but i gotta love her<3 then Alana, Alexa and I played BOARD GAMES!!!!! for like 2 hours, it was GREAT! then we went over to Geenas and Brittany was there with her, and we played a few rounds of BULLSHIT! it was GREAT too! then Darrell called and wanted me to go to the movies so i walked to his house and his sister took me, Darrell, Aaron, Casey and I, we got there, and we saw Taxi, it was funny, then we walked around and to Best Buy and then my mom picked us up and dropped the 3 boys at Darrells then i got home, and Alana, Alexa and Brittany came over and now us 4 are just chillin...

so i was going to do something tonight...but now i'm not really sure? i'm so confused about it..

What A Night..

2004-10-09T18:40:55Z

Sorry i dont type in this thing a lot and Alana get so mad at me when i dont update it so now i am : ) just for you Lana and who ever else reads this..

I went to practice this morning, then to school, Rebecca and I got to be on the annocements for Cross Country which was tight, anyways all day we did NOTHING in any class cause of fall break!!!! so yeah it was cool 8)

After school i went to Darrells house with Tj and a little later Brendan came over, we caught the ALEX to McDonalds and ate, Darrells sister picked us up and went back to Darrells, so i walked over to Geenas to get Kim cause she wanted to go to Katys then my dad took us to Katys where Joe, James, Elle, Sharon and Timmy were and we were all gonna go to the game but then James, Sharon and I decided to hang out with Darrell, Tj and Brendan instead cause Tj couldnt go to the game for a reason i'm not gonna talk about on here anyways so when Sharon, James and I were leaving i saw Hannah!! i <3 her! Timmy, Katy, Kim, Hannah, and Elle all went to the game then Sharon, James and I caught the ALEX, Darrell, Tj, Brendan and Aaron got on it too a little bit after then we got off and walked to James' where we just hung around for a little bit, Brendan had to go home, so after he left we walked to catch the ALEX AGAIN to Dairy Queen cause Sharon and I wanted ice cream so badly we ate there then caught the ALEX to Darrells house and hung out there for a little bit, Sharon, Tj and James walked back to James' so then 10 minutes later i got Darrell in trouble so i had to leave so i walked in the dark all myself to James house, James was nice enough to meet me half way : ) so my daddy picked me up there and i got home feeling HELL OF bad for getting Darrell in trouble..

i had a Good Night.. :) although..cept for lying a shit load to my dad, getting Darrell in trouble, walking by myself behind centennial in the dark being scared i would get raped!, my GOOD friend i care OH SO much about and wouldnt EVER want him to make a STUPID mistake, i find out he made a pretty dumb one : / and i also lost a bet that DV would win instead of MP but overall it still was a FUN night.. :)

Everything Happens For A Reason..

2004-10-02T17:40:08Z

I didn't really have time to write in this thing all week, i'm kind of busy, but in general, I had a NOT so great week : / ..i had AMAZING friends there for me though...I <3 You..Kim, Laura, Hannah, Alexa, Geena, Ashlyn, Torii, Jaydee, Alana, Rebecca, Jon, the gay guy (i met on the ALEX bus)

I was so confused about my situation..and while i was telling my dream that i dreamt on thursday night to Katy and Kim, this guy interrupts and tells me things that is EXACTLY what i needed to hear from an outsiders point of view, and the thing that shocked me most is the guy didnt know anything about my situation and from the little information he heard from my dream and the little stuff i told him, he just made a point to me, this guy was gay and maybe that had to do with everything he could relate to my situation, because the same stuff that happened to him has been happening to me, i swear i met my best friend last night that i'll probably never see again, he flat out told me things none of my other friends could've/would've ever told me. I had thought the whole night about what he had said, and now i'm not as confused and i actually think i know what i have to do.

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-09-25T23:26:00

2004-09-26T06:48:38Z

name:: Melissa

birthday:: January 8th

birthplace:: AZ
current mood:: tired
current hair:: natural down
current clothes:: Darrells Volcom shirt and PE shorts
current annoyance:: umm nothing?

current smell:: perfume
current thing you ought to be doing: sleeping
current desktop picture: Trees? idk?
current favorite band: Too Many To Name
current book: i'm not reading one..cant read.
current cd in stereo: Dashboard Confessional
current crush: Ummmmmm
current favorite celeb: idk?

smokeing: nope
do drugs: nope
have a dream that keeps coming back: umm no?
remember your first real love: Yes I do.
read the newspaper:: Not at all.

have any gay or lesbian friends: girls kissing eachother count? lol
believe in miracles:: Yeah
believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: Yes.
consider yourself tolerant of others:: idk

consider love a mistake:: not really

like the taste of alcohol:: Some
have a favorite candy:: M+M's
believe in astrology:: i dont even know what that is..

believe in magic:: lol Yes
believe in God: OF COURSE
have any pets:: 2 dogs..
got to or plan to go to college:: Yeah
have any piercings:: yeah
have any tattoos:: nope
hate yourself: not at the moment.
have an obsession:: lol...uhhh..not that i know of?
have a secret crush:: Nope
have a best friend:: i'm not really sure?

wish on stars:: All the time
care about looks:: Yeah..who doesnt?

life:: Lifes tough, then you die. lol
first crush:: this little boy that i was my "boyfriend" when i was 3
single or taken:: Taken
ever been in love: of course
do you believe in love at first sight:: I do

*word association*
rubber:: band

rock:: concert
wet:: nose
cry:: loud
peanut:: M+M's
hay:: hello
cold:: winter?

steamy:: shower
freaky:: Friday (the movie)
rain:: rainY day
bite:: dog
green:: pink

*appearance*
hair:: Blondish-redish-brownish color, choppy layers
eyes:: Hazel
height:: 5'5".. YES I GREW

last thing you...

bought:: 7UP (at a gas station)
drank:: Capri Sun

either/or

club or house party:: House party
beer or cider:: Beer
drinks or shots:: Shots..
cats or dogs:: Dogs!

single or taken:: BOTH
gloves or mittens:: NEITHER
food or candy:: Food!
cassette or cd:: CD

have you ever...

dated one of your best friends:: Yeah
loved somebody so much it made you cry:: Yeah.

drank alcohol:: hehe..
broken the law:: Um..sure.
run away from home:: Nope.
broken a bone:: YEAH! LIKE A MILLION!

played truth or dare:: yes
kissed someone you didn`t know:: lol Yeah
the most embarrasing cd in your collection:: hmmm Nsync

what is your bedroom like:: it has yellow walls, bunch of bag (hot guys on them) and posters (hot bands) and all my hot friends
your favorite thing for breakfast:: hmm...i dont usually eat breakfast

*last person you*
talked to: Brittany...
IMed: Jon
hugged: hm..I think...Laura
kissed: Darrell
had a serious conversation with: probably katy?
yelled at: My brother
befriended: nothing that know of?

*random questions*

what`s on your bedside table:: Alarm clock and pictures

what do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night:: all sorts of things
what is your secret guaranteed weeping movie:: My Dog Skip
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done: Haha..my..NOSE!
do you ever have to beg:: yeah
are you a pyromaniac:: lol not really
you know anyone famous:: ummm no?

desribe your bed:: Pink silky soft, and green sheets
spontaneous or plain:: Spontaneous

do you know how to play poker:: who doesnt?!
what do you carry with you at all times:: Cell Phone
how do you drive:: i rock.
what do you miss most about being little:: i miss my clothes bought by my parents
how much money would it take to get you to give up the internet for a year:: A LOT
what color is your bedroom:: Yellow :)
what was the last song you were listening to:: Lose My Breath
do you like yourself and believe in yourself:: yeah..most days.
do you think you`re cute:: Nope
do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you:: No they make me sad :(
do people in general annoy you:: sometimes
pick a word that describes you best:: there are many words..
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YES I'M DONE!!!!!! that was fun!!! : )

Alright Brittany and I now are going to bed. took too much energy to do that : ) Later.

Magic Mountain!!!

2004-09-26T04:40:12Z

Thursday Night, Rebecca, Maggie, and Katy all spent the night, we woke up @ 4 got ready, and went to Hot Church at 5, were we met up with, Hannah, Laura, Ricki, Jordan and Mauri, we all sat at the back of the big awesome bus we got on. For seven hours we watched movies such as, Finding Nemo, Saturday Night Live Best Of Will Ferrell, Billy Madison and we listened to music and just hung out doing nothing really but it was a lot better than school : ). FINALLY getting there we were TOTALLY excited, Maggie, Rebecca, Katy, Laura, Hannah, Mauri, and I got something to eat first because we were so hungry, then we started out doing the rollercoasters and we did a lot of them except like two because those lines were SO effin LONG so all day we rode the rides, spent money, took pictures, played the games (didnt win anything :( ), had SO MUCH fun! We got tickets for Pillar and Relient K concerts and went to Pillar, they were pretty awesome! then after Pillar we got in line to get GOOD seats for Relient K, got some food while half of us were in line still then they started letting us in and Hannah got us GREAT seats, 3 rows back from the front of the stage! we were SO close to Relient K! it was AWESOME! they did AWESOME too! So that ended around midnight and we walked around, went in a few shops, we were all getting SO tired, we got back on the bus at 12:45 and @ 1 we left Magic Moutain on our way home. Most of us fell asleep on the seats but Eddie, Ricki, Maggie were all on the floors and it was a REALLY uncomfortable place to sleep on the seats and it was FREEZING so we all kept waking up and falling back asleep and waking up and then falling back asleep..so at 6 in the morning we had to stop because of some chemical spill on the freeway so we had to stay at this gas station for 3 hours, it made us all bitchy, we got $6 for Jake and got donuts and 7UP for Katy, Hannah and I to split, it was SO gross but it was good at the time finally at 9 we were back on the bus, i fell asleep for a little bit but woke up and we were watching Bruce Almighty finally we got home and my mom picked up Katy and I, dropped her off and then i got home, took a shower and took a 5 hour nap (both felt VERY good), now i'm babysitting : / for my mom's boyfriend but at my house and i am still hell of tired but i had an AMAZING time @ Magic Mountain, and i have SO many INCREDIBLE memories!

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-09-18T16:56:00

2004-09-19T00:50:43Z

I havent typed in this thing in a while, i've been hell of busy but this was my week in general...

Monday- i had cross country in the morning..then school, had a pretty good day..then after school i went to Youth Alive (church thing) which was pretty awesome. Tj and I walked over to the Volleyball games and met up with Bj, Kim, Siera, Matt, Mark, James and more. Kim, BJ, TJ and I had the most fun then my mom/brother picked me up and i time with the family the rest of the night.

Tuesday- I had cross country pictures in the morning, then went school. had a GREAT day, after school i caught the ALEX and went to my good friend Jon's house and visited him and we watched a movie, had dinner with him, mostly talked and just hung out. after that i got picked up and yeah that was my tuesday.

Wednesday- skipped cross country (big mistake) got ready at my house with Katy and Kim (picture day), and at 8:10 we went to See Ya At The Pole (church thing) @ the school and then this is where my day went HORRIBLE, Rebecca comes up to me and tells me because her and i skipped practice we couldnt run in thursdays meet, i was PISSED!! so we went to Senor and he said to go to Mr. G so Mr. G told us we could only run if we wrote a letter and said it out loud in front of the whole cross country team and tell them that we're sorry for skipping practice so then some other stuff happened that i dont even wanna type because i just dont. and also i have a feeling my picture turned out HORRIBLE so gRrrRrRRrr so then after school i went to Tj's with Kim but he had a dentist appt. so his dad dropped us off for the Volleyball games so we watched them and hung out with Britt. Then Kim and I went to Fusion (another church thing) which was HELL OF fun!!!! we met up with Siera, Rebecca, Jordan, Brianna, Lacey, Rodney, and Tj, it was really a lot of fun..then i didnt do anything the rest of the night.

Thursday- didnt have practice, had the meet, got to first period..and FINALLY Mrs. Torok picked me to go get the new student instead of this one really smart girl so i was all happy about that then i go to get them HOPING it was either some cool chick or a really hot guy cause they had to follow me around all day..and i met her and her name is Elle and she is SO totally cool and i was so glad it wasnt some weird person, so she met all my friends and we talked throughout each period that she went to of mine..which was tight having someone follow me around all day..hehe. then Rebecca and I went to get on the bus to go to Pueblo for the meet and we DID get to run and we did better then ever! i was SO proud of us! Also we kicked Pueblos ass. and then i went home and didnt do really anything cept when darrell called for me to help him with his short story, i ended up doing most of it, and its now a pretty damn cool story, thanks to me ;) and then went to bed.

Friday- had practice, went to school, then after school got on the ALEX with Elle, Katy, Jason, Joe, James, Mark, and I and we all went to HOOTERS! we got 80 WINGS! for the 7 of us! we were such fattys that day! had the BEST time there though then went over to my house and hung out then Kim came over and they all went over to James house while Elle and I cleaned up my room since my mom wanted me home for a little bit, then Elle and I sorta got ready for the movies and we went to pick up Darrell then my mom dropped, Elle, Darrell and I off at James and we all hung out there, Matt came over for a little to James then he left, we all went to the movies and had A BLAST!!!! @ the movies, we saw Cellular. then after my mom picked up Elle, Katy, Kim and I and we went to my house then to Sonic cause we were SO hungry then ate, and fell asleep in my room RIGHT away. what people are calling a "party"? ha party, right? whatever. we had fun though.

Today- woke up around 11, ate breakfast, Katys mom picked us up and we hung out @ katys for a little bit, Kim had to go home and clean. Elle, Katy and Katys brother Carson and I got on the ALEX and went to Taco Bell where we saw the beautiful Ashlyn and then we ate. we chased after the ALEX but it passed..we got tired..didnt want to wait, called mama. so my mom came and picked us up and dropped us off at Katys and Elle went home to visit with her mom, she'll be back, Carson is taking a nap..Thank The Lord. and Alana told me that it was raining outside so Katy and I ran outside and danced in the rain till it started to get cold. and some guys looked at us funny. so tonight (i'll tell you about tonight since i probably wont write for another week) we're gonna order (40$ worth of FOOD!!) and just hang out and be lazy :)

If you read all this YOU HAVE NO LIFE! JUST KIDDING! if you read all this I LOVE YOU! :-* :)

An Okay Day..Surprisingly..

2004-09-12T05:39:57Z

I woke up and took a shower and layed around the house then i realized it was Jons birthday so i call him up and say Happy Birthday and he tells me he broke his leg! i was like OMFGOSH!!!! so he invited me to come over and hang out with him for a little bit so i started to get ready and i got a ride over there and then him and i talked about how he broke it and company came over and then left then Jordan and Kenzie came over and i met them and then Brandon came over and i met him (for like the 3rd time) and then more company and more company just to wish him happy birthday and to get well then Jons friend Chris came over and we all just hung out and sat there in Jons room and just hung out with him and kept him company then @ 7 i left his house, Jons house is thee best, i love his family and friends, all of them are hell of nice, it was great! anyways after his house i went to Target, my moms house, Subway and then back to my dads, now i'm not doing anything. i'm just thinkin a lot right now : /

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-09-09T20:03:00

2004-09-10T03:26:57Z

Today i woke up WITHOUT any practice (had a meet today) and Kimberly came over and got ready with me and we had to ride the ALEX to school so were walking to where it comes and its about to pass so we are sprinting and i had a skirt on that kept going up, and kim had jeans on that were falling down it was hilarous..but it all worked out and we got on it and then Torii got on and gave me the tank top i needed so i changed right there on the ALEX bus before we got to school, school was gay.. so not gonna talk about that..after school had the meet it was SO effin hott out but Darrell, Maggie, Kim and Katy were there to support me and Rebecca so that was AwEsOmE and i got to say hi to my good friend Jon since he was on the Akimel team that also was pretty CooL..so after that i went home and didnt do anything really after that..now i'm going to shower. i smell ;o)

My Labor Day Weekend..

2004-09-06T22:12:28Z

Friday- Friday after school, Maggie and I went to her house for a little then to mine to pack for Sedona then we were on the road with Maggies mom and dad, sister Kasie and Kasies friend Riley to Sedona because Maggies dad is ONE of the coaches for JV (junior varsity) for VCHS..anyways..EVERYONE was leaving town for Labor Day weekend so it took us A LONG TIME and had so many inside jokes/moment on the way *the toilet paper, "JT"* <<(to name the best ones)..so we got to the game and watched Varsity play (very hot boys) and looked at all the JV players that were in the bleechers (more hot boys) then had to drive another hour to Maggies grandma at like 10:30 so we didnt get to her grandmas till late then all four of us crashed in one bed. <<yeah i know you just wanted to be in that bed with us ;-)

Saturday- we had to wake up SOOO early to go out to breakfast then we drove to the JV game which was another hour away and then at the game we were just walking around and kept destracting the football boys, even though we didnt mean to but they would keep looking at us, it was funny one guy missed the ball cause he was watching us but anyways..the game was about to start and the Scorpions (sedona team) needed a BallBoy so Maggie decided to be it while Maggie was doing that Kasie, Riley and I kept messin around and kept crackin jokes about how the VC team are the Trojans <<(had to be there moments) then after the game we got on the field to play football with some of these hot guys from Sedona that were there for the Scorpions but we decided to play anyways cause they were hot. then we got in the car to go home. and i didnt do anything saturday night cause i was just too tired.

Sunday- got up, went to Hot Church, turned in my money for Magic Mountain :-) cant wait for that, its gonna be hell of fun! then after Hot Church, Katys mom picked us up and we went to Katys moms Boyfriends house Larrys for a little BBQ with Larrys daughter and her boyfriend and her boyfriends brothers and sister and some of Katys moms friends anyways.. after that Katy and I started to get ready for Until Augusts (Katys moms boyfriends daughters boyfriend is the lead singer(really confusing i know)) show. but it was really fun! and i looked really EMO it was strange but pretty cool and of course katy looked emo like she always does..just playin. anyways we got home and i fell right asleep.

Today- woke up, started watching the VMA's cause it was on again and then we decided to call my dad and we got in the car to go to McDonalds for breakfast then he dropped us off at Jamba Juice and we rode the ALEX back to Larrys and got into the pool, Katy broke the hot tub thing, it was really funny (had to be there moment again) and then i started to get ready because i am supposed to do something with Darrell today but i'm not sure if its actually gonna work out, my dad picked me up and now i'm gonna finish getting ready.

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-09-06T14:35:00

2004-09-06T21:35:32Z

yo dawgy. this is sammmyy updating for melissa.. because she can't?
and i'm tryin to figure out what's up with thisss..

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An Eventful Day.

2004-09-01T14:35:44Z

After not going to school yesterday and laying around the house all day trying to get better i decided to go to school today..so the first 6 periods i still felt like shit but the other two were okay, after school Alexa, Geena, Kim, Brit, Siera, Katy, and I all went to Micheals to get stuff for our shirts (Bri, Tor, Maggie, Alana, Gabi, and Rebecca had stuff going on) then after Micheals we got a little hungry so we walked over to Wendys and got some food sat there and ate, then after a while we got our *friends* to drive us to my house then we started to tie up the shirts and made the dye and then Maggie came over to help with her shirt, and Tor came over to help with her shirt so they look good and we did dye Alana, Gabis, Rebeccas and Bris for them so they can decorate them tomorrow with us. anyways so after we dyed them we all decided to try to dye my dogs tail..it didnt work..GrRrRrRrr so then we went inside and did a shit load of homework, my mom ordered a pizza and wings, got that we all ate some then the girls started going home then it was me and Brit and we hung up the shirts on hangers so the sprinklers wouldnt get them wet, after that Brit went home and now i am going to go take a shower then go to bed. :o)

abs0lutedisaste @ 2004-08-29T12:52:00

2004-08-29T19:52:19Z

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Alexs/Marks Party

2004-08-29T16:43:30Z

Today around 3 PM, Kim came over and my brother drove us over to Alanas house so then at Alanas house, her beautiful sister made us tacos!!! gosh they were good!!! so anyways while we were eating tacos, TJ and his friend Jeramiah came over and watched us eat for a little till Geena and Tor showed up and then we started to get ready for Alex/Marks party and TJ and Jeramiah were our bitches and were going from room to room for what we needed, it was great, then Brit showed up and then Bri came after her! After a little while of us all going insane, Maggie, Rebecca and Siera show up too, so i finally got done getting ready sorta cept i didnt have a shirt on (with my bathing suit on) while Britt, Alana and I made the card then Jeramiah when home and TJ waited outside for Darrell to get there then Darrell got there and i finished getting dressed then we took some pictures then walked to Alexs house. At the party o gosh it was so much fun but for the first hour i wanted to stay dry/all cute but nooooooooo Darrell was talking to me while the guys came up behind me and pushed me in, i was the first girl in the pool, so i was wet after 10 minutes after we got there but i laughed about it and just stayed in and stuff so we mostly swam a lot and went on the bouncy house thingy, ate, and hung around and talked then at 10:30 all the girls walked back to Alanas and went different places after that, i went home and got in bed a fell asleep.

Havent had the time..

2004-08-27T03:58:15Z

I havent typed in this thing in a while, i've been a little busy with cross country, school, gym, homework and with friends and spending some time with Darrell this week so i've mostly been doing those things for the past four days and gotta get up early for cross country tomorrow morning BUT i'm not gonna be a LONER in cross country anymore REBECCAS JOINING! YES! but anyways right now i got to go to pack my bag for cross country/school then going to bed :-)

A Not So Boring Sunday

2004-08-23T04:40:11Z

This morning i woke up, got ready and Katy and her mom came and picked me up for Hot Church (Katys first time going) so Hot Church was GREAT and made me want to go from now on every sunday so anyways after Hot Church, Maggie and her family were gonna take me home but before we went to McDonalds and had lunch then I got dropped off and i didnt wanna sit at home the rest of the day so i invited Kim to go to see Napolean Dynamite with me and but before i went to that i had to get new tennis shoes for Cross Country then we picked up Kim and Kim and I went to the movie, it was SO funny!!! i loved it! and i didnt think i would. after that we dropped off Kim and went to pick up my brother and then my dad, my brother and i went out to El Paso for dinner, got home, took a shower, and now i'm about to watch tv in bed and fall asleep cause i have to get up so early for cross country practice :-/ but overall i had a good day :-)